The following entry is an exercise from Julia Cameron’s work The Prosperous Heart: Creating a Life of Enough.
It might make for uncomfortable reading.
Often what follows, as a course of the exercise, is personal – sometimes jarringly so. I prefer to aim for as much openness as possible about my past, about my family dysfunction, and about my current health and emotional challenges now. My present as I write this is quite stable, but my past is something of a lingering disease – and there is the possibility that the lingering disease may actually be literal, rather than metaphorical. Money is more taboo to discuss than even sex, sexual violence, or misogyny from populations as suppressed and oppressed as women. What is silenced most of all are the later in life protests of the targets of emotional and physical abuses – “get over it” is in fact “shut up about it,” because shutting up preserves the abuser’s power by ensuring that that person will never be held accountable – that’s what silence does. This also creates a situation where the target’s silence contributes to the abuser’s ability to persuade herself or himself that the behavior “wasn’t that bad” thus enabling that person to seek a high by abusing another day, whether that’s a person or a substance. While it is not the case for everyone, the work I do via Julia Cameron’s projects brings out these memories and maladies – and the scream breaks the spell.
There is also a very positive side to this work for me in that I am a stronger, better committed writer. I plunge into this work as one path to total healing. Most people just want to get working on their art. It works for that – just remember to forgive yourself for what you do to yourself, and stay accountable for what you do to others. That’s really the simplest way to function.
- The comforting light of a homemade candle in the dead of winter
- My husband and partner (prefer partner to husband, but he’s half old-fashioned
- New experiences
- The hidden corners of public places
- Como Park Conservatory
- Dancing, dancing, dancing
- Compelling and engaging conversations about all sorts of ideas and shared loves
- Television, especially sharing an experience with another fan
- Writing – I really do love it
- Swimming. I’m not very good at it anymore, but it still brings me a great deal of pleasure.
- Reading blogs and magazines
- Stampington magazines – any and all of them
- Trying new recipes, especially interesting vegetarian ones outside of the cachet of my birth culture
- People that use words like “paradigm” with me and that are sincere and not buzzworthy
- Helping my friends and loved ones in significant ways when I can
- Browsing bookstores
- Making witchy things, like the skull bombs
- String lights