For this time period, I am working through Julia Cameron and Mark Bryan’s book Money Drunk, Money Sober before I work through the Prosperous Heart. The following blog entries are in response to prompts and experiences from the book. I see this as an extension of my Artist’s Way work. Some of my entries are jarring and highly personal – any program of sobriety and self-improvement demands admitting dysfunction both personally and in family, and it also calls to admit some painful truths. While not everything I work on appears here, a number of realities do. I have a genuine body of work thanks to my work on the Artist’s Way program, and I can’t ignore the changes the continual commitment has brought about. Because of that, I also can’t ignore what going further into the harder aspects of the program – like facing money issues – has the potential to improve.
Triggers that cause me to overspend. Many are also associated with the rare cases where I binge eat.
- Fighting with people about just about anything.
- Feeling body shame.
- Rejection – although not usually rejection of my written work, not anymore. Not since I helped judge that contest and got to see firsthand what editors deal with.
- Any contact with my blood relatives is a trigger. I’m only starting to understand WHY they make me that miserable.
- Coming out of any situation where I feel helpless, targetted, or inhibited.