For this time period, I am working through Julia Cameron and Mark Bryan’s book Money Drunk, Money Sober before I work through the Prosperous Heart. The following blog entries are in response to prompts and experiences from the book. I see this as an extension of my Artist’s Way work. Some of my entries are jarring and highly personal – any program of sobriety and self-improvement demands admitting dysfunction both personally and in family, and it also calls to admit some painful truths. While not everything I work on appears here, a number of realities do. I have a genuine body of work thanks to my work on the Artist’s Way program, and I can’t ignore the changes the continual commitment has brought about. Because of that, I also can’t ignore what going further into the harder aspects of the program – like facing money issues – has the potential to improve.
I can tell I’m sliding back into old habits when:
- I spend blind – I’m not sure what I have in my account, and I don’t want to look.
- I start using my check card for everything.
- I am anxious about going out with friends because of the cost, but I don’t want them to know.
- I buy for friends while secretly resenting the cost.
- I skip doing things I really, really want to do for myself to do something “virtuous” for someone else.
These are all definite telltale financial relapse signs for me.