This is part of my work in the Julia Cameron Artist’s Way series. The work this time is from the book the Sound of Paper. The responses are self-examinations and assessments based on work through a daily series of exercises. While I do keep some material offline as it can be very personal and jarring, I often opt to be fairly open about my experiences, both positive and negative.
How am I doing?
- Sticking with the morning pages.
- First day of Mercury Retrograde, heralded with lots of frustrating communications, and a lot of “no” to what I consider reasonable requests. Or at least, “nos” while citing Hierophant-inverted policies. Most forget, I am not afraid of the law as so many are. If you understand the law as a tool meant to serve you rather than as an authority to defy, suddenly life gets much easier. I am aware that this does not apply to everyone, but I am doing what I can to make it so it does. Also, music licensing? Not that expensive for small groups. That was an empowering thing to learn from a conversation intended to be disempowering. I’ve been treated in an unwarranted and unlikable way, and I’ve decided if its OK that I’m not likable as a result.
- I am using the Riding the Dragon Sayable/Unsayable exercise a lot. I’m just really pissed off at how I’m being treated with a specific context where there would not be a problem if I had been treated fairly in the first place.
- The book on divorce: in its 5th draft. I met someone last week who can help me spread it to a wider audience than just Pagans. Next step: to the beta readers. I hate that the term “beta reader” is now a routine part of professional writing lingo. It belongs in fanfic. Pros should use terms like “workshopping” or “review.”
- My feeling of being overwhelmed: kept me from sleeping last night. I’m going to gradually work myself up to 12 hours of exercise a week, starting with short walks during the day, and then just making it a regular, repetitive thing. I used to go for multiple walks a day as a kid when escape conditions allowed for it. Why? The exercise makes it easier for me to handle all stress.
Progress: setback last week from a sprained hamstring.
- Working conditions: improving them. Getting a chair that won’t cause back problems, so I can hopefully get more done with fewer interruptions, and ideally over time have less to do.
- Have I taken on too much, or is this something where I can get it started and then ease into a sustainable and hopefully health-building pattern?